What a crazy ride it has been. Today is my last day in the field with N squad. 5 (almost 6) months have come and gone, and now here I am, my heart more full of love than I could’ve ever imagined. I am here, and I am not ready to leave. But I know that I need to. 

I started this journey with them 8 months ago during Training Camp. Leaving for another 5 months would mean more time away from family, another birthday spent away from home, and stepping into more uncomfortable things for the sake of the Gospel. I knew the Lord asked me to squad lead, and I knew what the job would entail, but I wasn’t prepared for everything I would gain. Because even when the sacrifice is great, the Lord gives us so much more. 

In honor of my time on the field, here is a letter to the squad I have spent the past several months of my life with:

Dear N Squad,

Thank you for everything. This time has meant more to me than words can express. I did not come into this role to make friends, but God has blessed me with incredible friendships that will last a lifetime. I prayed over this squad months before I left the field on my race, and I know that every prayer was worth it. You all were worth it. 

I learned the value of intercession. When we pray, our prayers hold power. They allow us to stand strong in the midst of battle and war. I learned to fight on your behalf for breakthrough and healing and freedom. And God came through. 

I learned more about the beauty of community. To have people surround you and love you during some of the hardest moments is a glimpse of how much God loves you. Accepting love from God and from others is one thing I learned on my race, and you all helped me continue to grow in. 

Leading you all has been an honor. I have never taken a single day for granted. Thank you for sharing your stories with me. I will always hold them close and with care. Walking alongside you and watching you all grow has been incredible. God is doing a great work in you. 

“May the Lord bless you and protect you. May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you. May the Lord show you His favor and give you His peace.” Numbers 6:24-25

I have prayed this over you time and time again, and I will continue pray this as you continue forward in all that God has for you. No matter where life takes me next, I will continue to cover you in prayer. Over you, your families, ministry, everything. Know that I am still fighting for you.

And always remember, God is with you. Even when you feel lonely, even when nothing else is going right in your life, He is there. He will never leave you. You are deeply cared for and loved. By God, by those at home, and by me. Wherever you all end up, I am here for you.

I love you all. I will always treasure these moments that we shared. I am praying for you all as you continue on into bigger and better things, both on the field and off. You hold a special place in my heart. I love you all

Love,

Zim (Your retired squad leader and friend)