I can’t do this. There is no way I can lead this group of people. There are so many other people who would do a better job. I am not qualified. 

Every time the Lord asks me to step into a place of leadership, these same thoughts cross my mind. Insecurity and comparison come charging at me, ready to break me down. Regrets and memories from past failures meet me at my knees and remind me of every single reason why I am not good enough, or why I am incapable. 

Leadership is hard. Some days I wonder if anything I do makes a difference at all. Most days, actually. The enemy attacks, and he attacks hard. I feel vulnerable and exposed in almost every single way. I am filled with doubts and worry that I will only add to the hurt that people have experienced in their lives. I often doubt whether or not I am truly supposed to be doing this. 

A few months back, I was helping train new leaders for the squad I lead earlier this year. During one of our sessions, the new leaders were sharing fears or insecurities they had about being in leadership. Many of the things they felt are the same things I am feeling now. They are things that almost every leader I have spoken to has said. Feelings of inadequacy and comparison.

In scripture, God uses the unqualified all the time. David was a shepherd, and yet, he was anointed to be king over all of Israel. Peter was a fisherman, and he was chosen to walk closely with Jesus as a disciple and friend. Esther was a Jewish woman, and she saved her entire nation. The woman at the well was a Samaritan who was living in complete sin, and Jesus chose her to share the Good News with her people. None of these people were qualified or adequate for the calling God gave them. And that is the whole point. We are not qualified. And God chooses us anyways. He works through us despite the fact that someone else could do it better. We are here for a reason. 

I don’t feel qualified or adequate or good enough for this role. And that is okay. Because God knows that I will mess up and fall short. He knows my humanity will show through. And He chose me anyways. I only need to be obedient and trust Him. So if you find yourself in a position or situation where you feel as to though you are out of your depth, trust that God is okay with it. And He will still move.